[Jing Yuan pauses in the doorway, glancing at the rest of the room before dropping a plastic bag of goodies on the nearest unused bed. He fishes some kind of twinkie-like monstrosity from the bag, unwraps it, and then drapes himself over Dan Feng's shoulders.
There is no violence. No shouting. No slinking along with his back to the wall. He just breaths in Dan Feng's scent as if their intimacy is easy and not a nightmare of blood and teeth.
[There's two beds pushed together with all of Dan Feng's nest accoutrements, one more bed angled like he was thinking about pushing it with the others, too. The rest of the beds and the room is empty, and Dan Feng hasn't been very good about cleaning off the suspicious stains on the floor.
HIs shoulders go very tense when Jing Yuan drapes over him, and they don't relax even when he takes the food. He's holding it a little like a grenade that's about to explode.]
In the morning. I don't want to throw up and die in bed. [A pause.] Welcome home.
You can injure or kill me all you want, it matters little to me.
[He says this matter-of-factly, like it's a given he's going to die in the near future. Whatever. He moves to fold the bar back into its wrapping. He's hungry, yes, but he also does not believe Jing Yuan.]
It does matter. You punish me for it quite brutally.
[You're not allowed to forget that, sir!!
Also since Dan Feng is being an ass and Jing Yuan is currently spiraling towards nihility, he snags the twinkie back and takes a great big bite of it.]
[All of these happen very fast. Dan Feng thought himself an expert in all avenues of attack Jing Yuan undertakes to kill him, but this is very new and confusing and he sputter-chokes through his half of twinkie before swallowing it too.]
You - [He frowns. Fists a hand in Jing Yuan's collar to try and make him bend down.] Have you been drinking?
[He vaguely remembers - he sometimes drank with Jing Yuan Before. Maybe he was hallucinating. But he has no interest in controlling Jing Yuan's vices, as long as Dan Feng was the worst of them.
He lets him go. It's becoming harder and harder not to vibrate out of his skin from the anticipation of Jing Yuan's next act of defiance.]
I'll get you some water. Change into your sleep clothes.
[He can feel the annoyance start to creep up the back of his throat, having never actually considered what would happen if he caught his quarry and his quarry did not actively spend every waking hour either trying to kill or gaslight him.
He's not very good at hiding the annoyance either, brows drawing down as he comes closer.]
[It's YOUR FAULT, Dan Feng!!! Jing Yuan dares to roll his eyes, and then continues to be a pain by going limp and letting Dan Feng take his shoes off.]
[Dan Feng can scold him and mock him all he wants. Jing Yuan has chosen not to care, beyond the bitter satisfaction of seeing Dan Feng so unsatisfied with the result he asked for.]
If I am not permitted to be a person, I must become either a doll or a monster. So sorry my choice has disappointed you.
[Jing Yuan looks up at him with an empty expression. What's the point of being frustrated when there's no way to satisfy the man and no chance of reaching him?]
[The silence that settles over the room in the wake of Dan Feng's request is thick enough to suffocate. Jing Yuan doesn't have the power to do that. It's beyond his reach, but even if he could grasp it he wouldn't. The one thing he could never make himself do, regardless of the cost of failure, is to end any Dan Feng for good.
His chest clenches painfully, and his dead-eyed facade crumbles in favour of heartbreak.]
I am no longer the Dan Feng you know. Is that not enough?
[He's seen that heartbreak thousands of times and it was always the prelude to violence, but Jing Yuan doesn't seem like he's moving to hurt Dan Feng. Why isn't he? What's going on?]
You never were the Dan Feng I knew, as I have never been the Jing Yuan you knew.
[Dan Feng may not accept that, but Jing Yuan has no room to talk when he can no more bear to turn on this Dan Feng than on his own, even after all this suffering.]
I am not one of the Reignbow's chosen. I do not know if even that power could grant your death, but if I had it I still wouldn't try.
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[He's too emotionally drained to try to convince Dan Feng there's no poison involved, so he just plays along for now.]
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[He'll come back to the painfully domestic sight of Dan Feng folding clothes, back to the door.]
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There is no violence. No shouting. No slinking along with his back to the wall. He just breaths in Dan Feng's scent as if their intimacy is easy and not a nightmare of blood and teeth.
He also pokes him in the cheek with the twinkie.]
Eat.
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HIs shoulders go very tense when Jing Yuan drapes over him, and they don't relax even when he takes the food. He's holding it a little like a grenade that's about to explode.]
In the morning. I don't want to throw up and die in bed. [A pause.] Welcome home.
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[He doesn't move when Dan Feng takes the food. He just stands there all warm and solid and holding just a little too tight.]
I know better than to lash out at you.
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[He says this matter-of-factly, like it's a given he's going to die in the near future. Whatever. He moves to fold the bar back into its wrapping. He's hungry, yes, but he also does not believe Jing Yuan.]
Heng'er should be back soon, too.
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[You're not allowed to forget that, sir!!
Also since Dan Feng is being an ass and Jing Yuan is currently spiraling towards nihility, he snags the twinkie back and takes a great big bite of it.]
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[He gasps, and turns around to smush Jing Yuan's face between his palms.]
Spit it out!
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He also tries to shove the other half into Dan Feng's mouth while he's complaining.
...and his breath definitely smells of alcohol.]
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You - [He frowns. Fists a hand in Jing Yuan's collar to try and make him bend down.] Have you been drinking?
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[Surely theres no problem with this course of action!]
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He lets him go. It's becoming harder and harder not to vibrate out of his skin from the anticipation of Jing Yuan's next act of defiance.]
I'll get you some water. Change into your sleep clothes.
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[He does, however, flop on the bed. Still fully clothed, including shoes, because drunk and depressed.]
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He's not very good at hiding the annoyance either, brows drawing down as he comes closer.]
Shoes off, are you a barbarian?
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[He doesn't actually believe that, but he feels like one, and he's been treated like one, and he's spiteful and inebriated enough to say it.]
There is no need for manners in a mere object.
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Don't be intentionally moronic.
[Before he crouches down to start taking his stupid shoes off.]
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[It's YOUR FAULT, Dan Feng!!! Jing Yuan dares to roll his eyes, and then continues to be a pain by going limp and letting Dan Feng take his shoes off.]
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[He can enjoy the look of outrage at the eye roll, and Dan Feng's slight struggle with taking off his shoes. Why won't you cooperate.]
You broke so easily it's laughable.
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[Dan Feng can scold him and mock him all he wants. Jing Yuan has chosen not to care, beyond the bitter satisfaction of seeing Dan Feng so unsatisfied with the result he asked for.]
If I am not permitted to be a person, I must become either a doll or a monster. So sorry my choice has disappointed you.
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This is not how you are supposed to be. You should not be so compliant.
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[Jing Yuan looks up at him with an empty expression. What's the point of being frustrated when there's no way to satisfy the man and no chance of reaching him?]
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His chest clenches painfully, and his dead-eyed facade crumbles in favour of heartbreak.]
...I can't.
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[He's seen that heartbreak thousands of times and it was always the prelude to violence, but Jing Yuan doesn't seem like he's moving to hurt Dan Feng. Why isn't he? What's going on?]
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[Dan Feng may not accept that, but Jing Yuan has no room to talk when he can no more bear to turn on this Dan Feng than on his own, even after all this suffering.]
I am not one of the Reignbow's chosen. I do not know if even that power could grant your death, but if I had it I still wouldn't try.
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