[Dan Feng, who is used to patients doing odd things, breaks their contact completely to crouch at her medicine box. It's true that even he doesn't know what side effects his healing has, but he has a rough idea of the threshhold of seriousness.]
[He stills, then, and then immediately stands back up, medicine kit in hand, to go back to her; he sits back down and reaches out to take her hand, and continues to dig for bandages with the other.]
It may take a day to resolve. Or- longer. [Dan Feng murmurs, quiet, but not out of guilt.]
[He's long given up on understanding the Abundance. For now, he looks down at their joined hands, bemused.]
I cannot know what the effects are beforehand, but the healing is potent enough to justify it for some. [A pause.] We need to clean your wounds off before bandaging them again. Or perhaps your healing will be able to take care of the rest?
[ It mostly just has medical dressings and fabrics turned into such, but it also has some little hand sewn finger-sized plushies that haven't been completed in a pouch. ]
How would my healing undo it... 'twould only help you and doesn't injure me.
[ Frowning. ]
How would you feel if I said I'll let myself hurt when I could be healed, just because I'm used to it? Hurt that someone else caused and needed healing, no less? Just because you're used to it, doesn't mean you ought to be in pain. 'tis not like a lover's mark that you can wear and enjoy the ache of.
[ ... pause. ]
And if that's how you're seeing this, then tell Sett to give you one that doesn't cause you damage. Your body isn't yours alone to hurt anymore.
[He turns back to her, supplies in hand, and spreads the items between them as he holds out a hand for hers.]
It is different. I am immortal and ever-rejuvenating. A stagnant pond. It makes no difference if I hurt today or the next; it is all the same.
[His good tail curls across the bedspread, to slink into her lap.]
Yuan'er, he- my Yuan'er, used to run me through like a lover. I can't tell the difference. If you decided to hurt me now I would not love you any less.
[ Did he run him through like a lover or because he was trying to fight him off??? U immortals are kinda weird about this.
She sighs and moves her hand into his, her own coming to settle atop his as he works. ]
I'm not, though. Ever-rejuvenating. What may be fine for you in the long run, is something I see in mine limited days with you, a pain you have while in mine company. I don't like seeing you bear with something I can't help you with at that time. Feels like I'm being imposed on and denied caring for someone I love.
[ Basically: My time with you should be my time with you. Even in pain.
She also has no idea what the dragon's blood in her veins has done to her lifespan but shh. ]
... Dan Feng? If I ask you something about your feelings, will you answer me honestly? No lies, no excuses?
[That makes him pause; he'd never quite thought of it that way, that it was a form of hurting other people, too, the way he would not allow them to care for him.
She doesn't need much bandaging, but he works fast and efficient all the same, and if he sits closer than needed, well, she already knows how touch-starved he's been.]
It would be a disservice to the both of us if I said yes. [He looks up, though, tilting his head to the side like a puppy hearing a sound.] But I will try. What is it?
She thanks him, slowly moving her arm- it does feel better even if it's raw and sore, before shifting so he can come in closer and squeezes his hand.
She follows his movements tilting her own head, but fixes her blue gaze on his. ]
I don't think we'll be trapped here forever... so if there's a way for us to enter each other's worlds... and if I asked you to come and stay with me in Etheirys... even for a little while... how would you feel?
[There's a long moment, where he just looks at her like he doesn't comprehend the question. The hand in hers spasms tight, painfully so for a moment, before he inhales, and looks away.]
You have to understand, half of my waking moments for centuries had been for Jing Yuan. And now that I have him, and Dan Heng...
[He trails off. Looks down at their joined hands, and he ducks his head further, unable to hide how pleased he is. What a novelty, to be sought out for one's company...]
We are reading the same book, Megumi, only that you are several chapters ahead. [His tailtip swishes in her lap.] Ask me again, later on, when I have worked on myself enough to be worthy of your offer.
[ The reaction is cute, even if part of her only asks with the expectation that he'll *refuse* (because why would anyone want to stay with her for any longer than necessary?) — and yet, if she can ask, why shouldn't she?
(Even if she's asking someone so, so dangerous for her, and not in the way he is... but she will never forgive Marcellus in this lifetime, no matter what she feels for him.)
Her gaze softens, and she finally lowers her head with a chuckle. ]
... then, how would you feel knowing I feel something for Jing Yuan and Dan Heng now, too? 'Tis not the same as what I feel for you... doubt anything could come close. And they obviously do not see me in the same light they do you.
[ At most, she's their playmate, even if her own feelings have grown noticeably, but curbed. ]
I'm used to being the one left behind and not being taken seriously, because I love so easily. Surely, I'll find someone else to fill mine time, aye? As long as I'm "sweet and beautiful".
[ Things said to her. She stresses on them, mockingly. ]
But I'm selfish and demanding. I can be warped and ugly when I want someone to be mine. You...
[ She touches his face with her free hand. ]
I want you to be as happy as you can be. Whatever happens. You've longed for this for so long. So I'm not sure how much I'm permitted to want where it comes to you... to everyone I care for here. I'll never ask you for anything you can't give, so...
I suppose I just needed to hear if you would at least consider it. If not now, then before mine life has burned out.
I will not make you wait long. I know very well what it is like to love a short-lifer.
[He's not going to thank her for waiting, but he turns his face into her hand to hide in it briefly, like a small bird.]
If you told me you felt something for my betrotheds half a year ago I would have killed you instantly. I do always have the urge to kill you and take you apart and sleep in your ribcage [ok sidetracked, he blinks himself back to the conversation] but I like you better alive.
[ What a silly dragon. There is some amount of alarm at his words enough to raise her ears, but she gives his face a squeeze at his words, a wry smile on her face. ]
Full glad am I for it, then.
[ She chuckles, moving her thumb over his cheek. ]
I'd be very cross if death took me sooner than I had the chance to spend with someone I love, aye.
[ She draws his head down to kiss the corner of his mouth, her body temperature warm on the surface again. ]
... even if this place may not even let us choose who kills us when we need to. But I'd rather you do it before anyone else does if I ever end up needing so. Because I'll come right back to you if you do it.
Just don't kill me if I don't have to be dead. I'd prefer your embrace instead.
[ Why is she saying that? It's probably nothing. ]
[ But she tries to hide the blush rushing to her face on top of the heat in the kiss, sinking against him- until they have to regretfully part, and she blinks before sighing. ]
Sometimes I think you'll find any excuse to undress me.
[ She's already in the least amount of clothes she owns!! The miqo'te separates, just without the leather supports. She does move to carefully remove the stockings that she wore when her feet felt cold, though. ]
... Vastella is going to be so angry with me. And you for that matter.
My woman is a beautiful creature, why would I not want to see all of her when we spend time together?
[Unfortunately he sounds really sincere about that, less of a flirt and more of an actual question. He digresses, though, batting her hands away so he can remove them.]
I am not under their jurisdiction. [He mutters, Absolutely Not Worried. (Spoilers: he is very worried, he doesn't know how they manage make him feel bad for doing stupid shit, but it's awful.)] I do not regret offering. Sett is [Pause.] Not that annoying.
[ She appreciates the aesthetic appreciation- feeling a pleased flush run through her at the praise, and nudges him lightly, even if her tail is moving excitedly. ]
"Your" woman, is it. Then mine gorgeous man ought to give me the same delight.
[ He is so worried, though, and she gently tugs him back further onto the bed, sliding her hands under his top to feel across his skin there so she can cool herself some more, and sets her face against his shoulder. ]
I don't regret it either. He's precious to me. Been finding that I won't lay with someone I don't feel that way for, if I don't have to.
[ She doesn't have to do missions here that require it. ]
But I hate making Vastella sad... be sure to give them the best cuts of meat you have, too. Preferably not from your own body.
[ JOKING. She'll kiss along his jawline with a purr for it! ]
I do not think they would appreciate any more cannibalism, recreational or not.
[She's healed him enough so he doesn't really bleed through his bandages on her sheets, but he's still clumsy as he tries to remove his shirt, knowing that he runs several degrees cooler than what short-lifers determine to be normal.]
You should not do things you do not want to. [Become ungovernable like Dan Feng. There's several more attempts to get the hem of his shirt to cooperate. He huffs.] Take this off me.
She'll shift and carefully help him off with his top, before moving and looking over at his tail, then reaching for her dressings. ]
Hold still while I re-do your dressings first.
[ Healers just don't quit. But she will lean in to kiss the side of his neck, and give his ear a nip, before moving to take his tail over her lap. ]
... I've no concern with you having other lovers... not that 'tis a surprise. But know that I'd come to you first, before any others. 'tis important to make that clear to one's partners.
[ Beginning to wrap him up properly and securely. ]
There are others among mine company, and who I care for dearly. But you are the only one I've... said I've loved back, this way. Just so you know.
[He stays silent for a long moment, digesting this confession, all the way until she's nearly finished with his tail.]
It is very novel to me, to find that I do not love Jing Yuan any less - that I would never love him any less - to have affections for others.
I did not understand, until one day, I woke up, and you were the first one I thought of, because I wanted to tell you about what inane thing I had dreamt, and to see what you thought about it. A part of me shared with you, and so I hoped, that you would share more of yourself with me...
[His ears are red. He squirms a little at the vulnerability.] It is not something I would afford so easily. [What he wants to say is, she's special to him too, but he's allergic to saying it out loud, so this is the best she's going to get outside of murder attempts when his mara acts up.]
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Any other discomfort? Pain? [Rummaging...]
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[ Focus, focus... she somehow manages to express it, though, realizing what could be wrong. ]
Anxious. 'tis an abnormal anxiety. Perhaps 'tis one triggered by lack of contact?
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It may take a day to resolve. Or- longer. [Dan Feng murmurs, quiet, but not out of guilt.]
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... what are these symptoms? Now mine body feels hot inside.
[ Holding his hand- not tightly but still HOLDING to make sure he doesn't go anywhere. ]
The only time I've seen anything like this in mine patients is on the battlefield.
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I cannot know what the effects are beforehand, but the healing is potent enough to justify it for some. [A pause.] We need to clean your wounds off before bandaging them again. Or perhaps your healing will be able to take care of the rest?
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[ Motioning to the nightstand. It's not like she has much else here. ]
'tis just harder to use mine own healing for myself when I'm not at full health... but I can give it out. How is your tail?
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No. No more healing from you to me. Hush.
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Why not.
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[Haughty sniff as he reaches into her nightstand (rooting a little in it. Because he's curious) and takes out what he needs.]
And I have been injured far worse. It is not an issue.
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How would my healing undo it... 'twould only help you and doesn't injure me.
[ Frowning. ]
How would you feel if I said I'll let myself hurt when I could be healed, just because I'm used to it? Hurt that someone else caused and needed healing, no less? Just because you're used to it, doesn't mean you ought to be in pain. 'tis not like a lover's mark that you can wear and enjoy the ache of.
[ ... pause. ]
And if that's how you're seeing this, then tell Sett to give you one that doesn't cause you damage. Your body isn't yours alone to hurt anymore.
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It is different. I am immortal and ever-rejuvenating. A stagnant pond. It makes no difference if I hurt today or the next; it is all the same.
[His good tail curls across the bedspread, to slink into her lap.]
Yuan'er, he- my Yuan'er, used to run me through like a lover. I can't tell the difference. If you decided to hurt me now I would not love you any less.
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She sighs and moves her hand into his, her own coming to settle atop his as he works. ]
I'm not, though. Ever-rejuvenating. What may be fine for you in the long run, is something I see in mine limited days with you, a pain you have while in mine company. I don't like seeing you bear with something I can't help you with at that time. Feels like I'm being imposed on and denied caring for someone I love.
[ Basically: My time with you should be my time with you. Even in pain.
She also has no idea what the dragon's blood in her veins has done to her lifespan but shh. ]
... Dan Feng? If I ask you something about your feelings, will you answer me honestly? No lies, no excuses?
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She doesn't need much bandaging, but he works fast and efficient all the same, and if he sits closer than needed, well, she already knows how touch-starved he's been.]
It would be a disservice to the both of us if I said yes. [He looks up, though, tilting his head to the side like a puppy hearing a sound.] But I will try. What is it?
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She thanks him, slowly moving her arm- it does feel better even if it's raw and sore, before shifting so he can come in closer and squeezes his hand.
She follows his movements tilting her own head, but fixes her blue gaze on his. ]
I don't think we'll be trapped here forever... so if there's a way for us to enter each other's worlds... and if I asked you to come and stay with me in Etheirys... even for a little while... how would you feel?
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You have to understand, half of my waking moments for centuries had been for Jing Yuan. And now that I have him, and Dan Heng...
[He trails off. Looks down at their joined hands, and he ducks his head further, unable to hide how pleased he is. What a novelty, to be sought out for one's company...]
We are reading the same book, Megumi, only that you are several chapters ahead. [His tailtip swishes in her lap.] Ask me again, later on, when I have worked on myself enough to be worthy of your offer.
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(Even if she's asking someone so, so dangerous for her, and not in the way he is... but she will never forgive Marcellus in this lifetime, no matter what she feels for him.)
Her gaze softens, and she finally lowers her head with a chuckle. ]
... then, how would you feel knowing I feel something for Jing Yuan and Dan Heng now, too? 'Tis not the same as what I feel for you... doubt anything could come close. And they obviously do not see me in the same light they do you.
[ At most, she's their playmate, even if her own feelings have grown noticeably, but curbed. ]
I'm used to being the one left behind and not being taken seriously, because I love so easily. Surely, I'll find someone else to fill mine time, aye? As long as I'm "sweet and beautiful".
[ Things said to her. She stresses on them, mockingly. ]
But I'm selfish and demanding. I can be warped and ugly when I want someone to be mine. You...
[ She touches his face with her free hand. ]
I want you to be as happy as you can be. Whatever happens. You've longed for this for so long. So I'm not sure how much I'm permitted to want where it comes to you... to everyone I care for here. I'll never ask you for anything you can't give, so...
I suppose I just needed to hear if you would at least consider it. If not now, then before mine life has burned out.
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[He's not going to thank her for waiting, but he turns his face into her hand to hide in it briefly, like a small bird.]
If you told me you felt something for my betrotheds half a year ago I would have killed you instantly. I do always have the urge to kill you and take you apart and sleep in your ribcage [ok sidetracked, he blinks himself back to the conversation] but I like you better alive.
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Full glad am I for it, then.
[ She chuckles, moving her thumb over his cheek. ]
I'd be very cross if death took me sooner than I had the chance to spend with someone I love, aye.
[ She draws his head down to kiss the corner of his mouth, her body temperature warm on the surface again. ]
... even if this place may not even let us choose who kills us when we need to. But I'd rather you do it before anyone else does if I ever end up needing so. Because I'll come right back to you if you do it.
Just don't kill me if I don't have to be dead. I'd prefer your embrace instead.
[ Why is she saying that? It's probably nothing. ]
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[He says this in a tone that's faintly bewildered, still unused to such blatant declarations - from anyone - of actually wanting his affections.
Dan Feng turns his head to catch her lips against his, luxuriating in the contact, before pulling back and frowning.]
You are very warm. Too warm. Take off your clothes.
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[ But she tries to hide the blush rushing to her face on top of the heat in the kiss, sinking against him- until they have to regretfully part, and she blinks before sighing. ]
Sometimes I think you'll find any excuse to undress me.
[ She's already in the least amount of clothes she owns!! The miqo'te separates, just without the leather supports. She does move to carefully remove the stockings that she wore when her feet felt cold, though. ]
... Vastella is going to be so angry with me. And you for that matter.
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[Unfortunately he sounds really sincere about that, less of a flirt and more of an actual question. He digresses, though, batting her hands away so he can remove them.]
I am not under their jurisdiction. [He mutters, Absolutely Not Worried. (Spoilers: he is very worried, he doesn't know how they manage make him feel bad for doing stupid shit, but it's awful.)] I do not regret offering. Sett is [Pause.] Not that annoying.
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"Your" woman, is it. Then mine gorgeous man ought to give me the same delight.
[ He is so worried, though, and she gently tugs him back further onto the bed, sliding her hands under his top to feel across his skin there so she can cool herself some more, and sets her face against his shoulder. ]
I don't regret it either. He's precious to me. Been finding that I won't lay with someone I don't feel that way for, if I don't have to.
[ She doesn't have to do missions here that require it. ]
But I hate making Vastella sad... be sure to give them the best cuts of meat you have, too. Preferably not from your own body.
[ JOKING. She'll kiss along his jawline with a purr for it! ]
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[She's healed him enough so he doesn't really bleed through his bandages on her sheets, but he's still clumsy as he tries to remove his shirt, knowing that he runs several degrees cooler than what short-lifers determine to be normal.]
You should not do things you do not want to. [Become ungovernable like Dan Feng. There's several more attempts to get the hem of his shirt to cooperate. He huffs.] Take this off me.
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She'll shift and carefully help him off with his top, before moving and looking over at his tail, then reaching for her dressings. ]
Hold still while I re-do your dressings first.
[ Healers just don't quit. But she will lean in to kiss the side of his neck, and give his ear a nip, before moving to take his tail over her lap. ]
... I've no concern with you having other lovers... not that 'tis a surprise. But know that I'd come to you first, before any others. 'tis important to make that clear to one's partners.
[ Beginning to wrap him up properly and securely. ]
There are others among mine company, and who I care for dearly. But you are the only one I've... said I've loved back, this way. Just so you know.
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It is very novel to me, to find that I do not love Jing Yuan any less - that I would never love him any less - to have affections for others.
I did not understand, until one day, I woke up, and you were the first one I thought of, because I wanted to tell you about what inane thing I had dreamt, and to see what you thought about it. A part of me shared with you, and so I hoped, that you would share more of yourself with me...
[His ears are red. He squirms a little at the vulnerability.] It is not something I would afford so easily. [What he wants to say is, she's special to him too, but he's allergic to saying it out loud, so this is the best she's going to get outside of murder attempts when his mara acts up.]
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