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Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: it's you 😺

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: no, i meant
Imbibitor Lunae: why would you s end me this

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: do you want me not to send you things?

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: no i

[2 minutes later, after dropping his phone on his face, watching it bounce off the mattress and under his bed, and after fishing it out, all the while feeling a really absurd combination of happiness and suspicion,]

Imbibitor Lunae: it is fine
Imbibitor Lunae: i am not good at chatting, yuan’er
Imbibitor Lunae: general

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: I'll practice with you.
Jing Yuan: I did tell you I'd pay you attention if you behaved.
Jing Yuan: You've MOSTLY behaved, so here's your attention.
Jing Yuan: If it's like this, then you can't see or feel me, so it'll be easier to resist madness, right??

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: yes, but the more i speak with you, the more i want to put my hands on you
Imbibitor Lunae: in every way possible
Imbibitor Lunae: i have wanted you for centuries
Imbibitor Lunae:
Imbibitor Lunae: i do not know what to say. i have never spoken to yuan'er like this over text

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: You're allowed to feel how you feel.
Jing Yuan: It's your actions I wanted to work on.

[There's a brief pause, where he starts typing and deletes it several times.]

Jing Yuan: It's foolish of me, but I don't want to have to run from you.
Jing Yuan: Can't we try to build something new?

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae:
Imbibitor Lunae: i am not your dan feng
Imbibitor Lunae: i will hurt you eventually

[is this what it feels like to be on the other side of denial. this is weird.]

Imbibitor Lunae: that is all i know

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

[Jing Yuan knows that too. He's still got the fading bruises to prove it. But it's hard to just give up when Dan Feng is right next door.]

Jing Yuan: I know that.
Jing Yuan: But I'm not your Jing Yuan either.


[There is EVEN MORE typing and stopping now. It goes for awhile before he finally sends just this:]

Jing Yuan: sorry

Re: Day 6

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[it takes him several minutes to answer]

Imbibitor Lunae: i miss you
Imbibitor Lunae: and yingxing
Imbibitor Lunae: and jing liu and bai heng
Imbibitor Lunae: i want to go home

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

[Wherever he is right now Dan Heng can't take his phone away from him--

He takes a bit to work up to responding too. We're doing fine.]

Jing Yuan: me too
Jing Yuan: maybe thats why i cant leave you alone

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: if i don't have the
Imbibitor Lunae: rage, or the obsession, or the greed, or the madness, or
Imbibitor Lunae: all i have
Imbibitor Lunae: is the guilt

[he stops typing here. his hands are shaking too violently]

Imbibitor Lunae: hundreds of thousands of millions lost be cause I wasn't strgong enough
Imbibitor Lunae: i have nothing to offer you like this

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

[Jing Yuan is a famously smart person, which is why he says the dumbest possible thing.]

Jing Yuan: you have you

Re: Day 6

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[how does that help exactly pls explain]

Imbibitor Lunae:
Imbibitor Lunae: you need my services as an emanator?
Imbibitor Lunae: that is fine

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

[ok nvm jy feels smart again]

Jing Yuan: please return what's left of your brain to your thick skull

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: you are three hundred years too young to be this insolent you brat

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: you're the one talking back to an arbiter-general of the xianzhou alliance
Jing Yuan: 😾💔

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: all right young master 'i will wear the most aggravatingly bad fitting waist armor and harness as the face of the xianzhou luofu'

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: my reputation should be built on my accomplishments, not my fashion sense
Jing Yuan: i like those
Jing Yuan: they're comfortable

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: i have told you dozens of times image is part and parcel of leadership
Imbibitor Lunae: do you think my robes were practical or comfortable in any way

[wait. wait they're actually talking. wai]

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

[They sure are.]

Jing Yuan: I wear what I want and somehow I'm still a highly regarded leader 720 years on

Re: Day 6

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Imbibitor Lunae: that is because your face is very
Imbibitor Lunae:
Imbibitor Lunae:

[he is not typing cute aggression]

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: ???

Re: Day 6

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[he puts his phone down. takes his pillow knife out. stabs it one (1) time into the mattress. screams into the shitty sheets.]

Imbibitor Lunae: you already know what i feel about your face

Re: Day 6

[lionsleeps]

Jing Yuan: point


Jing Yuan: [grainy photo of a woodpecker]
Jing Yuan: this is loud