[It is inherently risky to admit that kind of thing to someone like Jing Yuan, yes. But while he absolutely use it if he feels it necessary, he doesn't want to. For now at least it's safe.

He weathers that tight grip without complaint, returning it as much as he can without causing harm, and lays a soft kiss on the tip of one long ear.]

I felt horrible as soon as I said it. I thought you wouldn't want to see me, so I gave it some time, but... I missed you too. I could barely sleep, thinking I'd ruined things.